2 Timothy 1:7

I know I just posted less than a week ago, but I had a thought that I wanted to share. 

We are in the Gatlinburg, TN area for a few days while the girls are on spring break. Yesterday we went into the Smoky Mountain National Park and went horseback riding and hiking. Our family was up at the front of the horse trail so our guide could have Sofia and Emma right behind him. 

As we rode, I found myself worrying about the girls and wondering what the odds were that one of them might fall off their horse going up or down the big hills. Worrying about that turned to worrying about other things. I worried about how the girls will transition in Spain. I worried about how they’ll do in an all-Spanish school. I worried about learning to drive somewhere with super narrow streets. 

I wasn’t enjoying the ride at all. There I was in a beautiful park on a horse, and I couldn’t focus for being worried. 

Then a thought came to me. “I didn’t give you a spirit of fear and timidity.”  I knew that was part of a Bible verse, although at the time I couldn’t remember which one or what the rest of it was. But in that moment, I felt myself start to let go. I resolved to stop worrying about it all and just enjoy myself. 

When I got home, I looked up my verse. Turns out it is 2 Timothy 1:7. “For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.” 

When I worry, I feel powerless. I don’t feel love, and I certainly don’t show self-discipline. More importantly, I don’t demonstrate that I trust God when I worry. 

God wants us to trust him. He wants us to rely on for all of our cares and concerns. When we do that, we gain a power over our worries. When we refuse to worry and fear, we show our love of God. When we refuse to worry, we exercise self-discipline. 

I can’t change the things I’m worried about. I have no power over those things trust may or may not happen in the future. In some ways, I’m along for the ride. I’ll react when we get to that time and place. 

For now, I’m choosing to reject the temptation to worry and give in to fear and timidity. I choose power, love, and self-discipline. I choose God. 

Peace be with you, my friends.